The Stranger

The moment we first sat together, I could sense that something is not right, I felt like there is a strong attraction but not on a physical level. He had this incredible energy, buried deep down under layers of thoughts, emotions, and circumstances. I was intrigued by it, and I wanted to know more, but as he had few sleepless nights, I didn't feel as if it was the right moment to talk about it. It was pleasant being around him and I knew that this trip is going to be enjoyable, I was just not even slightly aware how much.

When I felt his arm wrapped around my shoulder, this is where the trouble started for me. Normally I'm in a state of intense presence, being aware of things around me and just experiencing, but in this moment I stopped beeing and started feeling. The more time we spent together, the feeling became more intense and I was trying to justify it in my head, but more I thought about it, more it became frightening and therefore I decided it is better to let go to the moment and "think" later. Being very logical and down to earth person, I don't allow myself this kind of irrational behavior and especially the feeling part, but also practicing the surrender experiment, I'm trying to accept life as it unravels in front of me.

I felt like I was in a dream, although I was tired as well, but I couldn’t sleep. This feeling kept me awake, the feeling of strong attraction and the chemistry, it was incredibly intense. It was impossible to stay away and yet, I knew it was wrong for both of us. His every touch was hypnotic and made me fall even deeper into this state of thoughtlessness.

Thinking about it later, the rational part wishes it never happened, but emotions… the strongest enemy of rationale. I feel like there was a reason behind this situation I found myself in, and probably soon, the explanation will come unexpected. It really made me rethink about some things.

My heart wants to see him again, but the reason is telling me otherwise, as usually, it cannot win in this situation. I don’t trust myself around him, he brings trouble.

There is something sweet in thinking about him, it makes me smile and remember those moments together in a way of something incredible that happened but not wanting to ruin this with by making both of our lives complicated. Life is full of surprises and destiny always finds a way, I will be excited to see what it brings.