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Am I wrong for not giving a shit about the LGBTQ?
As in, I am in it, yeah, but the whole pride thing is just ehh to me. Not that I hate, do what you want, I don’t care. But if you come to me and ask “Let’s go to pride!” I will not. I don’t give a shit about the parades, or the merch, I’m just dulled by it.
Sure, you can do all your over the top makeup and dress up (I don’t mind it) but I just.. I don’t know how to describe it, but like I just ain’t that into the whole “celebrating your true self”.
Like I don’t have a bad childhood, no internalized homophobia (as I know so far), but like I just don’t give a shit about celebrating something that I just view as some little fact you learn about me. I don’t know how to describe it but, Y’know people who are all draped in pride things everyday and like always talk about it nonstop? I don’t give a shit about them. Not in a hatred to the community way but in the “you are so fucking boring, I’d rather be squashed by a 30 foot tall cactus and I’d enjoy it more than talking to you” way.
Like I just identify as all genders cause I don’t care about what people call me at this point, sure some call it pangender or genderfluid, idrc. I also hate when I’m shopping and people I’m shopping with like my friends or parents always point out pride merch and are like “oh, you want any of this?” No?? Just because I am queer doesn’t mean I know everything about it, and I’m okay with that. Honestly I care little for the LGBTQ in like knowing them, idk but I guess it’s funner with the straight people I know cause they’re not always ranting about pronouns or anything related to liberal ideology. The straight guys I hang out with my straight best girl friend is so funny, we’re always joking around and calling each other slurs (AS A JOKE, LIKE THEY CALL EACH OTHER RACIAL TERMS AS JOKES) and it’s funny because there isn’t any of those stupid “deep talks” my queer friends have about ranting about their identities during gym.
That’s odd though, because I don’t avoid the talking about queerness. I’m fine with it. It’s just.. I suppose the people I hang out are the problem, maybe, because *all* they talk about is always related to being gay or trans or whatever fucking identity it’s that time.
A media they want me to watch? Oh, it’s a sad movie about being trans, I wonder why they sent me that *I am trans, but I don’t care.*
A character they like, who are they? Oh, it’s just a character who has little hints of queerness in them.
Like that YouTuber whose channel is around “GAY NEWS” I don’t care for. Sure, go for it, but I’m more interested in my fandoms and all my fixations, not whatever new character is confirmed queer or what law is published for queer people. Go be happy, I will be chilling and baking in a game while waiting for the government to now focus on other problems like abortion rights and all that.
And it’s weird that I could be internally homophobic, since I never had an upbringing ever relating to hating queerness. I was born in a non-religious family in Tennessee, and I was just in a family who accepted queer people and all that, it was cool and all that. But I don’t know, when my mom found out (I was 12 at the time mind you) about me being a trans guy at the time, she uttered my name “Max” (which I now feel could be just a nickname I like maybe?) and I just felt.. weird. awkward, uncomfortable, all that. Like I was just confused as to why my brain wasn’t happy or why I wasn’t crying tears of joy at her support, it felt odd, like I didn’t want to have it or even I just regretted being trans in the first place.
Am I in the wrong or is this normal for some people? Am I horrible for thinking this?
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how could you be horrible for just thinking? You're perfectly normal. By the same token though, no one is truly 'normal'. If you spend real time with anyone--like, serious time. You'll find out just how weird each individual you meet is. We're all weird which basically means were normal lmao.
Anyways, my little brother is actually pretty similar to you. He doesn't really care about all the lgbtq stuff. He just wants a normal life and enjoy people as they are. That's totally fine. The reason you're probably not finding as many people who share your sentiments is probably because their quiet and not the rambunctious parading type.
I'd probably get tired if people were constantly talking about how straight I am. That'd just be weird and annoying after a while.
ReplyHonestly, I’m not LGBTQ, but I am black, but I did find the BLM stuff a bit odd. I mean, like the way you’re saying you’re LGBTQ, but you aren’t all about pride parades and stuff. I mean, the pride flag, it’s a rainbow. What if you’re gay and you don’t like rainbows? It’s like, I’m black, I’m against police brutality, I get all of that… but like why’d you make it a logo tho? Like do we really need logos to represent identities? It’s weird. Why does anybody need a flag? I mean honestly, call me crazy, but why do countries need flags? There’s all this stuff about “respecting the flag.” I mean, look at the American flag, forget about ideology, forget about the constitution, what does red and white stripes and some white stars on a blue background mean? Sure, thousands of people laid down their lives for that flag… with little stars on it like it’s a blanket for a little kid or something. Like what are all these random abstract patterns that aren’t even that aesthetically appealing all about anyway? Maybe, I’m just philosophically opposed to the idea of flags in general.
ReplyI'm British and we were watching a video of a fire engine in NYC, racing to a scene, and we noticed the American flag on the back of the truck. We both burst out laughing. That's just so funny to us from the UK. You'd never see the equivalent here.
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