My Unsent Letter

Dear Zach, I miss freshmen year, I missed the old you, where you were so sweet and pure, but now we are juniors, you've become something you're not, and you hurt yourself, Not to mention other people, I can't believe you would love bomb me just to get back with your ex the 8th time after 2 days of you ending it, she treats you so horrible, why did you leave me saying, 'I need to find myself', I've put so much effort in, I've cleared every rumor, I've been there when you didn't even need to ask me to, I tried to be so perfect but no, you run back to a girl that doesn't care about you other than for your body, you aren't going to let that get to me, my self-worth is more important than a girl has hair like the kool-aid man and that wants you to get hurt, you must hate yourself, maybe that's why we didn't work because I care about you but you don't, I love you but you don't, your such a pretty boy, you have cool style, you are fun to be around, you seemed too real but I guess this was a dream. I loved how you were so special, so cool, I never liked nirvana until I dated you, Iand I never realized how beautiful bats were until we dated. I even tried to geet alone with your weird friend nathan. He was funny but a bad example to you, I'm sure he made you this way, and your other friend that you hang out with. I so upset with you but I can't get mad. I still wanna deal with your family and people that hurts you. I still love you, I still love every moment waiting to call, or the time I walked to your house to cuddle with you, or when I painted your names, or the hoodie, or the lego fowers, even know you took them back. I was so exited to go to homecoming with you but all of this happened, you should be ashamed for lying. I was so happy, you didn't waste my time but you hurt me. like you said you wouldn't. I miss and love you blondie, or goldie, whatever named you you liked more.

- s 🦇