need advice- is it OCD? what can be done?

i have a condition where

i am afraid of using grindr application because i get horny while using it, and secretive and paranoid of being found about my feelings from my family.

So i become very nervous when i use it when my family is around. And i live with my family.

So eventually i stopped using the application.

But I have become increasingly nervous and anxious whenever i see colors similar to the application colors combination.

Whenever I see mustard and black in combination i get very nervous, afraid.

It prevents me from attending a company interview whose logo is similar to grindr logo or has color combination similar to it.

Recently i went to a support group for the first time, LGBT support group, which was situated above a stationary shop whose name was written in that color combination (black and mustard),

So i attended the group and went there but whole time, i was very afraid and anxious about it.

So i was wearing a shirt and pant the day i went to that support group, which I avoid wearing that shirt because it reminds me of that day and i dont wear the shirt because i feel really anxious , I was wearing shoes also that day which i avoid wearing now all the time.

So other day, i was going for a restaurant , wanting to have snacks , I thought I should wear shoes because it was far away and I thought one day i have to wear them also.

So i tried them and just went up to lift, but came back quickly because it was making me feel anxious of if anybody would see me, and i was very nervous , i came back , changed my shoes and then went again.

But this time, clothes were still the same which were with the shoes , because i changed the shoes but didnt change the clothes, i do have memory of going to the lift with the shoes , its not enough to change the shoes , I would have to completely change my clothes and wear sandals or whatever which was not associated with the memory.

Today I had to pick my sister from her job and the route was same (the same route where I went with nervousness and anxiety wearing sandals with same clothes which were with shoes)

so It was ok while i went but when i came back it was coming in my mind that i have come from the same route so i have to change clothes which I wore while when i picked her up.

And today is my birthday, I came back from there and sat while eating lunch and saw on TV , my sister was watching movie where it shows the cast and the heroine was shown in black and white,

black and white- there was this person named trinetra - she is a transgender (MTF) , she has her surgeries done.

She had a photograph of her in black and white on instagram , so I am afraid of black and white pictures, black and white videos or anything of such nature also.

So I got afraid while watching movie because it showed actress in the Cast feature that

by the way i am avoiding using the phrase "Amazon prime"

amazon prime is the OTT where trinetra was in the show as well - so i also avoid using the app Amazon prime or wherever i see it.

so it was an xray feature of amazon prime which shows the actors /actresses

the actress has her photo in black and white.

So i was feeling unsettled, while having lunch.

There came a scene where actor is in gift gallery looking for cards.

And the shopkeeper asks him what kind of card he wants - birthday cards, anniversary or anything

now they mention - birthday cards.

And so i become afraid that now because today is my birthday, I am gonna have reminders of this movie scene or this situation when everyone wishes me birthday or i am going to have hard time now going to my birthday party.

Please I need advice , this looks as Obsessive Compulsive disorder.

Also the root is my discomfort towards my sexual attractions towards men or whenever i use the application and the discomfort i have when i use the application while still liking the hornyness and still being afraid of being found out by others while using the application.

I have come out to my family , they have stopped asking me for marrying a girl or anything but my mother keep an eye whether i am dating , or whenever i am going out to meet someone.

What could be the cure of this?

i have a therapist with whom I have taken 10-12 sessions now.

but still things are still the way they are.