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Hi im a 16 y/o and idk how to explain what im feeling but im really stressed and struggling and to give context I’ve a loving girlfriend and we know each other for more than 5 months now but we have been dating for 2 months now and this is my first relationship and i really didn’t know i was carrying on childhood trauma caused by uncountable fights between my parents and they never loved each other and ended up getting separated when i was 12-13 y/o and i never really felt appreciated and i just came third in my entire school and it really was a big achievement for me but more than appreciation i got lectures on how it’s just a good start and not that big of a deal which was funny and idk how to describe cz i expected to get something bcz it was a big thing for me but still I wasn’t rewarded so i would just say ki I don’t really trust them idk and i just got to realise as i was studying on this topic i realised I’ve anxious attachment and i cannot remember a lot parts of my childhood and i just laugh a lot and that’s to suppress my emotions and I’ve been appreciated and loved the most by my gf who is a very beautiful person and really helped me a lot with everything but unknowingly I was hurting her by attacking her questioning her and accusing of her stuff she never did or never will cz she never can because ik she’s better than that but I was hurting her and I realised it yesterday and idk maybe it’s too late I just hope it’s not and I really really hope so cz the thought of losing her just made me feel like dying and falling apart and Ik im the one who pushed her away when she kept getting hurt for me and after trying to talk to about stuff affecting her day before yesterday she got very distant and no cell of mine what she did or is doing is wrong but I really love her and it’s affecting me a lot and I really don’t know what to do and I did talk to her telling ki how I’ve realised stuff and im ready to change but we haven’t talked to each properly and we have our exams coming up and idk I felt like after that we’ll most likely be over or she’ll be there but we won’t be the same and I hope nothing like that happens and I pray to god that it doesn’t yk and Yh I’ve lost my appetite I don’t feel like eating I don’t feel like doing anything and I cry a lot more and my head hurts most of the time and my body feels lazy and lethargic and I feel week and idk what’s going on with my life and how to do deal with this but I really don’t want to loose hope and do something that’ll make closed ones feel bad or regret about yk and im really fighting but I just can’t but mark my words I will not do it no matter what happens I won’t . I hope someone sees this and can help me out
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