To Dear God🪷

Yesterday I had been to temple to pray to you(God) for the peaceful closure of the past related to me and R. Since I was in hurry, I prayed to you(God) a little and couldn't completely say what I wanted to say to you(God). I would like to say that I'm thankful to you(God), R, for the past experiences that taught me valuable lessons which i had to learn and was necessary. Whatever the reason might be, he coming into my life just for the short period of time and only be able to interact with him indirectly without seeing him(R) in person was something that I now realize he was just meant to teach me in some ways and he was only meant to be a lesson in my life. Now I understood that when it comes to romantically involving with someone like having a crush, getting attracted to someone, strong pull, infatuation, or Loving someone, because they like us and claim that they like us very much or love us, we don't see them for who they are as a person but instead end up creating our version of them without even knowing them personally. I know I was wrong all this time and also ended up making mistakes most of the times. All this time I suffered a lot with the guilt of my last biggest mistake. So i decide to go to temple to release myself from the guilt and heavy feelings that i was carrying since long time and let go of all that was related to past and him(R). I now know that i was meant to learn to see the person as they are and accept that version of them, I was meant to accept the fact and be respectful of them and their decisions. The most important lesson I had to learn was to respect and value myself enough and do what's best for me. Its not just him, its me too. I matter too. Its not all about me and him, or only him, or what i did to him. Its also about me and what I am going through, and so finally its about me now. And now I pray to you(God) that i apologise for the misakes I've done and apologize to R through you(God). I promise I will never make such kind of mistakes again. I've decided to never interfere and go to his life again. I pray to you(God) to fogive me for all my past mistakes related to this, and also related to any other. I pray to you if there was anything from my side in the past or anytime that was hurting emotionally or was anything negative, please don't let it affect him(R) or any of his people. I don't want him or any of his people to be affected by me. Bless him for the New Beginnings, Good Future and Good Life🙏🏻. Greateful to You(God), experiences, lessons and Him(R)🙏🏻.

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