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What is it like to be me? Have I diluted my true self to please a man? Have I allowed society to shape my choices? Can I even enjoy blasting music in my own car or home without feeling judged?
I’ve been living in this house for 46 days, and not once have I played my music loudly. Music has always been my therapy, my reset—nothing else heals me quite like it. Today, I finally decided to blast my music. After two hours, my partner, who was downstairs playing video games, came upstairs with an annoyed look and closed my door. The music barely reached him, but his gesture killed my vibe, yet again. Within five minutes, I turned the music off.
I haven’t journaled in over 90 days. I need to get back to it—it used to be my outlet. It doesn’t help that I’m ovulating right now. My finances are in disarray, and mentally, I’m struggling. I’ve kept it all to myself, even crying myself to sleep two nights ago.
I’m in week three of college, trying to do my best. Meanwhile, my son hasn’t started school yet because he's waiting on booster shots, so I’ve been with him every single day for two months straight.
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To me, it sounds like you don't love your husband, but I sincerely doubt that's true. Have you forgotten the moment you first met him? What about the moment he asked you to marry him? In times like this, with financial disarray and mental struggle, it's too easy to forget to enjoy yourself. Perhaps if you're feeling like this, the two of you need to sit down and have an honest conversation about your emotions. Maybe he is going through a tough time too, and that is why your music annoyed him. (You can always blast it in your car.)
And please, if all else fails, you should never dilute true self to please a man. While I'm an advocate for fixing your relationships, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work. Starting over is never worse than staying in a bad situation.
And please start journaling again. Wishing you the best.
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