Rant

I have no idea if anyone is going to even see this, but I've always wanted to write about my feelings and share them online anonymously. I'm a girl in high school. I've always hated the way I look. There are days when I come home and cry, because I think no one would ever love me because I'm not pretty like other girls. My nose. My body. My face. Everyday I compare myself to everyone around me. I have never had a boyfriend. I've never had a crush like me back or even be remotely interested in me. I've tried dressing like everyone else to fit in, but honestly it's tiring trying to put in effort for people who probably couldn't care less about me. I've gotten bullied. Elementary school and middle school were probably some of the worst years of my life. I got made fun of for who I liked, I got called fat, ugly, stupid, a teacher's pet. The list goes on and on. It really hurt me. It lowered my self esteem so much, that I would dread going to school the next day, because I didn't want to go through the same name calling. People in my generation, have very very unrealistic standards for everything. You're not thin? Ewww gross I would never date you. You don't wear makeup? Maybe you should start wearing it. You wear makeup? You're wearing too much. You don't have blonde hair? Get away from me. You're not gonna help me cheat on a test? Forget it, it's not like anyone likes you anyways. You're LGBTQ? Disgusting, you should be ashamed of yourself for having this "mental illness". Don't even get me started on how boys treat, and talk about girls. Why are you judging her body? "She wears makeup?" Great! "She doesn't?" She's still gorgeous. "She's not thin?" She's still pretty. "She's thin?" She's pretty. "She's smart?" She's pretty.