Not fun at allllllllll

This is so tiring, I just want someone to like me and for me to like them back. I want a connection that really means something and for it to feel exciting and raw. Some of my friends will try and sympathise or will think they understand how I feel but they’ve at least had fun little moments of hope and excitement and had silly drunken kisses and cuddles with someone but they don’t actually know how it feels to have had absolutely nothing. And I mean, nothing. I feel like this is the world challenging my independence and self worth,or, at least, that theory hurts my soul much less. And it’s all anyone talks about so it’s not even like I can escape it. It’s all about coupley things and adventurous acts of romance or sensuality, or about how badly they want someone, or how badly they want a relationship and it’s just like-we know!!! We all feel like that! Can we hold other things to an equivalently high importance because it’s making me feel more and more lonely by the minute and it’s not fun! Practically everyone I know is in a relationship, or likes someone, or is talking to someone, or has previously had a relationship, or had a short and sweet moment in time with someone, when is it going to be me?