Self harm.

When I was about 6 or 7, I used to hit my self in the nose alot to make it bleed while watching on my dad's tablet that he didn't use,I'd come crying to them that I dropped the tablet on my face. At the time I had no clue what self harm was. Fast forward to 5th grade. We had a sub in the class. We were writing stuff about us and I thought it would be funny to write about that I don't get enough sleep at night. When the sub read it I thought people would laugh at me and after she was done reading it I smiled thinking that everyone was gonna laugh but no. It was dead silent. Fast forward again to 6th grade now. I know what self harm is and only a bit suicidal thoughts. Not much but in 7th grade, I started to think more about cutting myself, making jokes about killing my self. Or even thinking about it when I'm alone. No clue what to what end this with but if your reading this. Thank you.