I KNOW YALL HEARD ME CRY FOR HELP

I was molested by 7 people in my family, aunts uncles and a few cousins and one of my aunts boyfriend. Till this day that Shyt eats me up inside.. four schools i attended back in the day just turned the other cheek n believed everything my family told them.. I being in n out of mental health hospital since I was 10- maybe 11 years old.. sometimes I check my own self in just to get away from the world.. till this day they got folks thinking im a liar and just wanted attention.. but who tf lies about shyt like this n I never switched my story up ever.. I always told the truth.. it got soo bad that my family really had me mentally gone, I started to believe It happened to me in a dream.. when I know for a fact a was sexually molested.. its being over 29 years and its still effects my life.. im tired of the fake smiles,,laughs n wearing a mask when im around certain ppl. Yes im in therapy.. yes i take meds.. being sexually abused by family members and folks u thought were family would really fyck with u mentally no matter how much help n guidance u seek, that shyts eats at u.. I forgave my abusers but i dnt know how to stop hurting nor stop thinking about what happen to me, n why did they try to silence me?? So did i really forgive them?? Or i did I just accepted the fact that it happened n nobody will never believe me..?’!! Hmmm possibly. even tho the system turned their backs on me, I would say I kinda survived.. but I know for a fact they heard my cry for help, or they just didn’t care 😔#ventingoutloud #hurting #depression #theunknowngirl