Where's 'up' in my life?

They say life is like a rollercoaster, but if that's true, where's the 'up' in my life?

From the beginning of this year, I've been facing nothing but disappointments.

I gave my heart to someone I truly loved, but they broke me and stopped talking to me. I’ve lost all my friends, and now even family health issues have started. My mother can’t walk properly because she broke her ankle.

I was scammed because I wanted to learn skills to get a job. In my current job, they don’t pay us and treat us badly. I’ve even started having health problems, living in a hostel with no one to talk to. I feel so alone.

I haven’t healed from this heartbreak, but I’ve had to lie to my colleagues, pretending that everything is fine in my relationship because they know how much I loved that person. I hide it because I can’t face them.

I’m trying hard to get a job, but I keep failing in interviews. Even today, after passing 2-3 rounds, I received a message that I was rejected in the final round. What’s wrong with my life?

This year has made me feel so unworthy, unloved, and useless. Not a single good thing has happened to me. I feel so overwhelmed carrying all of this.

Life feels unfair when everything seems to go wrong at the same time—the pain of heartbreak, loneliness, family worries, job stress, and health issues. It’s just too much to bear.