I got rejected

I got rejected today from a scholarship that I also applied 2 years ago. It's my second time to be rejected.

I am sad. But I still want to keep going. Like nothing happened. I want to trust God's plan for me. I am an indecisive person so I trust on His way because I don't know where I am going.

I cried as well. Tears that I am holding back. I don't want to cry really. But I am sad because of this lines, "everything happens for a reason". I am jobless,no confidence and feeling mediocre. And everything happens for a reason. What would be that reason?

I don't know where is my direction. My work is not good enough maybe, that's why I am no selected or chosen in a bigger role or career. I am insufficient. But I am fighting this insufficiency struggle. Sad that my efforts are not good enough.

Even after all this unluckyness. I still want to believe that I will surpass this dark year of mine. I'm nearly seven months jobless and my confidence is dropping really fast 😞 will I still get a job? Or reach a financial freedom and travel?