Nearing Highschool

Anytime I ever feel comfortable expressing my emotions it's immediately dismissed as some emo shit. Why the fuck can I never talk about what I'm going through but oh my damn god, how heads turn to hear your little trip to Five Below. I don't even want people to know about what swirls in my head- just a person.

I just don't want to be myself anymore- I want a new skin to hide inside, something that is optimistic, cheerful, and beautiful. I hate myself, she's no good. She just sits there and stares off, thinking about how lonely and quiet she is.

But having people isn't that much fun either. Especially when you remember every little thing they say- how they notice all of your mistakes but you still love them, which makes it even more difficult. Maybe I overthink.

I just really want someone that I'm close with, where we can hang out together, accept each others quirks and shit. Maybe I'm praying for a relationship but, I need someone.