Ok.. so... now what?!

I can't quite place where I stand. I am not at a cross-roads, there are no two roads diverged in a yellow wood... I feel as though I am in a big empty space with all of my things and thoughts... but the world around me is spinning and something and I'm missing something.

There have been many times that I've wanted to start at the very beginning and tell a story up to the very second the words left my finger tips; story telling from the beginning just isn't an option. But then, where am I to begin? With the parts I've already figured out? Still awaiting validation on some of those self discoveries, there in lies the issue of where exactly I am to begin.

Perhaps that of which I am certain of. Maybe, just maybe, that would allow me to more easily fill in the blanks of the other parts that I've not yet visited or am choosing to file away. Only just recently have I been able to access memories I didn't know existed. As someone who needs all of the information, this is very helpful. As someone who is broken, ignorance was bliss.

I am feeling sadness today. The need and lack of meaningful connection is almost unbearable.