mind drifting.

In the ages of man kind as someone from the future would say there was alot of slaughter and death

there was simple but beautiful harmony that was understood and got distorted.

the life of a man as a caged animal began coming upon us.

Slaves are something dark and forbidden nowadays but it wasnt before.. yet again here we are

not exactly free also can be refered to as slaves that simply got more life support and the needs

to live comfortably it is really strange i would say..

people say that evil and good exists but they dont completly understand what it means.

Evil is considerd well.. bad, dark and wrong.. Good is misunderstood for this reason.

People in these days would take everything negative and do their best to never get close to it.

yet thats not how things work in my opinion.. life is not about having everything flow as honey

sweet and slow.. I think its about learning things as humans in our "short" or "long" life span

I think that if something bad happend to you, its a chance to develop furthur in life.

If something good has happend, then its a tool that you can use to learn even more when something bad happens to you.

life is funny but i would say balance does exist maybe in a very unblanced way but its still here

with us.

A phrase people like to use is.. everything happens for a reason.. and when you think about it.. does it actually..

what exactly is a "reason" a reason is a motive or an explantion for something..

if everything happens FOR a reason.. then its really silly in my opinion... if everything is as a written book

and already has our destiny or future in the pages... it would be dissapointing for alot of people.

think about it

if you are one of those who beleive in this phrase.. then.. what if your story is to die acomplishing nothing..

your part in this story is to simply be born and die after youve lived an empty life..

doesnt sound that exicting and reasonble now does it..

and again if this phrase or saying is true... Ill say it again ill be dissapointed as many others.

but lets say maybe we are a part of something bigger lets say.. existence itself.. after I heard some

lectures from Allan Watts I started debating this subject.. ive tried putting his point of view

which is way wider than I can imagine right now at least.. and.. its very calming and even sweet I would say,

even negative things seem right and in place.. but for me.. someone who expirienced life for only a short while

and have not seen all of it.. Im getting really impatient as for some reason I speculated that something must happen..

maybe today maybe tommorow maybe right now.. but it doesnt.. you can relate this to everything.. maybe calling on your favourite pizza place

to order but find out that... its closed for the next month or even went bankrupt..

and now youll have to wait or find a new pizza place you like..

but.. you cant.. there are alot of pizza places and you know it, you also know that there is a pizza place that youll like

there has to be.. I mean there has to be right ?

This relation or comperisson might seem silly and odd but its true..

from my own experience, life is someone who takes its sweet time in giving you something truely good and pure..

something heavenly even.. something you knew for sure will come to you.. it has to.. you need it.. but then I start thinking about prespective..

lets say theres a girl you adore... shes simply heavenly you picture her as an angel something truely.. warm and kind..

yet when someone else gets this girl.. you think.. hes the luckiest person on this planet.. while he simply thinks..

I like this girl we will probably go out for a while and who knows whatll happen..

Basically he has no feeling of her being that angelic thing you so thought she was..

then you might think its unfair.. but is it really ? or is it all in your head.. that you over glorifed this person..

put this person above yourself.. put this person so high on the pedestal.. you thought you could never reach him or her..

some may say that... thats what love does to you.. love hurts.. but thats just being closed minded.. when you are in this situation..

you consider yourself inlove.. and thats why youre suffuring so much.. so you think its fine.. it might be fine but..

its not love that causing the damage.. its just your own way of thinking...