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Today someone said a very real thing to me. I was walking down the hallway to give a guy in my class a paper, and I saw this guy in the hallway. He said, "I'm happy I got to see you today, you always look so happy. Always smiling every time you go somewhere." Which is true, I smile no matter the situation, no matter how bad I'm hurting. I have everything. I always have the newest electronics that come out. I have a car. I have a family that loves me, and siblings that look up to me. I am very smart, 25th in my class. Guys at my school find me so attractive, and some girls wish they could be like me, yet i still feel so empty. I go home and cry and wish i was a better person. I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I wish I could leave this horrible world. When I drive to school sometimes I just thing about running off the road and into a tree or something. Something subtle. Why am I in so much pain? I have everything. I shouldn't have any reason to hate myself. I should be helping people. I shouldn't have to fake this smile that I put on my face everyday. It just makes me hate myself even more because there is no reason to complain. I dont want to be me anymore. I want to be someone new.
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