Family

I really miss my brothers right now. My heart aches and I feel broken/empty. I moved out when I was 19. My brothers were 18, 15, and 13. I am 24 right now and I've missed so much of their lives. Every time I visit or talk on the phone, it's like we're just friends. I'm not able to read their minds or hearts anymore... If you have siblings you know what I'm talking about. I don't feel like typing the reason why I left, but the worst part is they thought I abandoned them. I left my 18 year old brother who was my bestfriend in the dust and now he's found shitty friends and all they do is drugs... like Heroin. If I hadn't left I could have guided him........... They're all grown now, the 18 year old, now (22) is still on drugs, but the other two understand why I left so we're okay...... I don't know how to enter their lives again and have a say/advice them... And I want to save my drug addict brother above all................. My mom says don't worry and live your life. But she doesn't know the love for your brothers. Sigh