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Around four years ago I met the girl of my dreams, she was funny, smart and beautiful. After two years of being best friends and doing everything together, I asked her to be my girlfriend. For me this was a huge jump, as I find those particular aspects of life very confusing and terrifying to deal with. To my surprise, she said yes. We made so many memories together, we went camping, we went on holiday, spontaneous road trips. I had the time of my life. I had my first sexual experiences with her. I am completely and utterly in love with her, and everything about her. We lived each other, I would tell her every day, and she would tell me. Like all relationships, we argued. More than I would've liked. He had a lot more experience with relationships and sex than I did, so there were often holes in my knowledge and I wouldn't always do what people would consider to be the right option in some situations. But I always tried my best. The good times we had were amazing, but the bad were the lowest point in my life. Before this relationship, I had not put myself across as anything or anyone other than someone you can joke with. No emotions, no feelings, no regrets. Just an optimistic hilarious fool. As soon as I met her this changed, I found someone I could reside in, someone I could talk to about my problems. For the first time in my life I felt human, and I felt like my opinions and feelings weren't stupid. This girl has depression. She has for as long as she can remember. I love never really figured out how to handle this. Which has resulted in many arguments as even after two years, I have no idea how to make her feel any better. This girl has been the bet thing to ever happen to me, ever. She is my life, I can't even explain how much I fucking love her. Today she broke up with me. I am at the lowest point ever. She won't talk to me and she won't let me try and make things better. She was the only person I could talk to. Before I was used to bottling up feelings, but not anymore. I have no one I can talk to about how I feel, I don't even have the heart to tell people we've broken up because a small part of me is praying that she'll tell me she made a mistake and that she wants me back in her life. I am currently sitting here, on my bed, sobbing praying for my phone to ring. I know it fucking won't, but I can't shake this feeling that she will miss me. But as I sit here, I remembered a post I saw on Facebook many years back. It was a picture showing the progression of a male and a female after a break up. The female was shown to be broken at first but to get better with time, the male on the other hand was the complete opposite, realising how much he needed her and getting more depressed. The thought of this post angered me. The fact that anyone would believe that anyone would be fine after a break up fucking angers me. I am in love with her, and that won't change any time soon. I want her to be happy, whether it's with me or with someone else who will make her happier. For as long as I live, I will regret not being able to push myself to be that one person who makes her happy. Thank you so much for reading, if you have any comments or advice, please comment below. This is the only way I can get anything out. Thank you all so much.
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I guess the best thing you can do is to encourage her to get help. Let her know she has the power to overcome this but she has to choose it. You cannot fix it for her. Patience is key because if you overwhelm her with things that she should be doing it could have the opposite effect.
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