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This is a story about a person who scratched my car today. I feel incredibly petty writing about this, but I really need to vent. So I'm going to work and I park my car in front of a building with this huge car park. I want to note that every morning I park my car on the same spot. My car is Ford Escort. Anyway... In the end of the day I'm leaving work and see my car all scrathed (with a key or something like that). For more than a year I'm leaving my car there and there was never a problem. But today wasn't such day. I felt how I'm literally starting to shake with anger not because of the scrathes or the fact that I can hardly afford a repainting, but with the person who did this. And more specifically because I don't know who he/she is. All I wanted was revenge. And I know it's wrong because only God can judge and punish. But in that moment I wanted to scrath his/hers car, ruin the tires and brake the headlights. I've never been this angry in my life. I'm not a confrontational person, always wanted to help people and I was doing it very successfully. After I got home I cried because I was helpless and the anger was still in my chest. I couldn't eat or rest. After a few minutes of this I stopped crying and started to write a note to this person. I wanted him/her to see all I have to say because in that moment that was all I could do. That note I tered because after I read it I was so ahamed of myself. That wasn't me. I was offending that person, called them names and I poured my whole anger. I wanted to hurt them with my words. Pathetic really. After that I wrote a second note in witch I explained how I felt. I was sadq because I couldn't afford repainting, I was sad because it was a gift from my dad, I was sad, because it was a very stressfull day at work and that was the last drop, my head was full of concern about my personal problems with health, and I rally can't afford any other expenses. And it was all true. I still am sad but thankfully all the rage from earlier is gone, Sadly I can't take all my words back because even if the first note is no longer whole, it remains in my memories as something wrong I was thinking. And I hope God forgives me for that. Now all I want is peace and although it's just a car, it's my car and from now on everywhere I go, I'll be ashamed to show it to someone, or to give a ride to someone. But the truth is I'm more ashamed of people who do this. Because of people like this, I lose every hope in humanity (including myself). Depressing, I know but it's my mood right now. My dream is to grow as a person, no cars, no any other material things. Just to grow and leran forgiveness. I will really appreciate if anyone writes something short to me if you have the time. This helped a little. :)
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