i need someone

im not one that normaly breaks verry easily if been trough divorces and parents going to jail more then once. but these last few weeks have been the tiping point all my friends are moving to go to college sow thats kinda like my failsafe being taken away from me . i got less and less money to work with every month and have to pay everything myself as a 19 year old i even have moments that i cant afford gas i work verry hard and even am aiming for an education but sadly i dont see myself being able to keep up with this i got no to verry low free time and now even my dearest friends are no longer with me i had to give up smoking and drinking anything else then water since i have to pay rent ect ... now i know that time can heal allot of things and im sjure of it that my work will be rewarded but i realy needed to conffes and let these feelings out hense this text (bad english included) i hope that anybody wo read this has a nice day an i wish you the best in live :)