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This is just something I wished to get off my chest.
My first ever experience when loving someone, I'm 19 now and this happened around 1 and a half year ago.
Roughly around the middle of 2015 I started to talk to this boy online.
It was firstly never about anything private information just about what movies they've watched or what rock music we mentioned to each other.
Gradually we began to talk every day and night and I began to have feelings towards him.
Ive never had experience with men at all I was curious and thought since I waited for so long I'd give it a chance.
We talked about everything and were up all night talking and this was until middle of 2016 until something began to change.
He said things like we'd travel the world together, I really like you and want to be with you, you're the perfect woman for me and i fell for it. I loved this man but clearly none of this was true.
I was randomly on Snapchat and found a couple of pictures that he posted with a woman. The caption was multiple hearts followed by "love of my life".
At this moment my heart crushed and broke and to be honest I don't think its evee recovered.
I was happy, joyful. I smiled everyday and had many friends.
I'm now alone, depressed. I try to smile but I feel like that's not me. I feel like myself now. Truly. It's like a mask I put on every day. One occasional day I have where I'm happy. And then the next I'm crying myself to sleep.
I was angry so I deleted him off everything but recently he's been on my Instagram. I see pictures with multiple women, it makes me feel so low. I have no-one now and honestly feel alone. I should have known his intentions from the start. He was a man who fondled with women, if a more "beautiful" or interesting woman would come, hed then go with her. Honestly ridiculous.
I've been asked to go out with men but I've always refused. Needless to say my first experience with love was horrendous and I don't want to be in a relationship with a man of all they are going to do it use me. And then leave with no say .
Sorry about it being long.....i had to get this out and there's much more than what ive said...lol
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