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At what time do you start selling your soul?
You have this idea of who you are. What you were meant to do, a purpose, an objective, a goal, a passion for something. It doesn't have to be a written structured piece of paper. Just an idea, a concept of what you can be. You hold on to that version of yourself, your hypothetical virtual version of yourself trying really hard not to give in to the reality of the hierarchy of needs, " I don't HAVE to be conventional, why I can't I first be happy and start from there?"
Motivational wisdom will tell you that there are times you'll feel all of this, and that's the time when you have to be strong, believe in yourself and stick to your dreams.
I think the problem lies right there. What if you don't still realize what your dream is, you don't EXACTLY know what you want to do. You know what you don't want to do but that's not good enough. Time flows into that hour glass and your independence to hold on to that virtual image of yours keeps loosening. You slowly start doubting whether you have any purpose at all, it's not about being a sheep anymore, the question is whether you should even exist? Why were you here in the first place? What is the point of occupying physical space if you don't give any return? The problem is time, no matter how much you are told that there's always time, there isn't really. It's a race, and as time progresses and you still find yourself figuring out what you want to do you realize you are the bottom of the food chain, fighting for the crumbs that are left over.
We all have this idea of yours that no matter what, ideals are what matters. No matter what the situation comes, stick to who you are, don't settle. The best thing to happen to you is right around the corner, but we all lose track of one thing, you're not just responsible for yourself, you are the result of the investment of countless people's time, money and emotions. So who are you to decide what you do with your life? If you couldn't figure out your purpose by now at least be a good enough failure to realize that the rat race is where you belong.
Idealists will disagree with this, cute you examples of success stories and by God they are right, there are success stories. People with unfathomable, bottomless pits of courage and wisdom who manage to get out of the rat race but why do we forget that the law of fractions applies to every being in existence. The factor is time. You have to come to the turn where the choice isn't so much about between still chasing your dream or compromising to mediocrity, the choice is between continuing to fail and realizing your true worth, nothing.
Don't get me wrong, you had a good run. You touched countless lives in your own pursuit of identity. You might have even inspired some to find their own dreams, good for you! But practicality asks you to really evaluate what the next step is going to be. Will you continue wasting other people's time, money and emotions to find a path that doesn't exist or will you be find it in you to finally realize that maybe you didn't have a purpose: it's alright, not everyone is meant to have one.
If anything, find peace in thr realization that even giving up and realizing your worthlessness takes courage. It might be the last and only respectable decision you take in your life. Maybe your soul wasn't meant to be free, maybe it's meant to be sold.
Do it.
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It all starts when you realize worth is a subjective concept.
To a money-oriented capitalist world, your value is equal to your productive efficiency. To those who focus on the superficial and skin-deep, whether or not you fit their criteria of beauty is what determines your value. To those who are classist, racist, or any other form of prejudiced, you are valued more based on your situation. And to those with any other definition of value, your value is indefinable.
So then, if all these different versions of value exist, which can be right and which can be wrong?
All of them. And none of them. Because it's subjective, and therefore cannot exist at all for anybody but oneself.
If you value yourself, who can take that away from you? People shouting that you are useless and confused, that you need to hurry and find something useful to do with your time or you'll end up at the bottom of the heap--who are they to say what's useless and what is not?
Understandably, much of the world runs in a give-and-take manner and the longer you wait the more you put yourself at a potential disadvantage. Yet it's so much easier to watch people run about, preforming the same futile song and dance to impress others, when you realize that whatever they do, no matter how flashy and important it may seem, it doesn't matter.
And it never has, and it never will.
The concept of worth is immaterial. It's nothing more than idea that exists for each individual separately.
If you consider yourself purposeless and impractical, then you are letting the supposed idea of worth constructed by other people influence your perspective. And although you've yet to find something to invest your time in, you can be worth the sun and the moon and every star in the sky. You can be worth the entire world, you can be worth more than any amount of money or any precious metal or any polished gem or any amount of effort.
Whether or not something is worth doing is a decision you have to make. Do everything. Do nothing at all. Do whatever you want, even if it seems trivial and ephemeral. For what reason do you need purpose other than to answer the question "What are you doing with your life?" and not seem like a total loser?
When, really, you could answer the same question by simply stating "Living." and give no further answer. No explanation required.
Who says you need purpose? Who says you can't exist for the sake of existing?
And if there's no such thing as value, who's to say how much a soul can sell for?
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