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Okay. So before I delve into everything I wanna give a little background. I moved to my current house and school a few months ago. I met this boy who I had thought was absolutely amazing. Turns out he was just a guy who got around and took advantage of me being new. Through our breakup I ended up meeting some of my current best friends. A girl and a guy. Lets call her N and him C. The funny thing about N was that she was my ex's (the guy from earlier) new girlfriend. She didn't know about me and the guy dating because we kept it a secret. Then the guy started doing the same things to her and she began to uncover his drug problem and infidelity. They broke up about a month ago and he's currently in a hospital for his drug abuse. Now C and I grew very close very quickly and he soon became my ride home from school. This whole time my feelings for C had been nothing but friendly. He, on the other hand, began to develop feelings for me. Now I'm a girl that's had a lot of problems with dating in the past, so I very rarely will be seen in relationships. Anyways, I told C that I wasn't seeking any kind of romantic relationship and to my delight he completely understood and respected this. Now I met C in our math class. He sat next to me and one day I started complaining about my problems and the rest is history. So fast forward to January. We were taking our final exams in Math and my teacher put a boy next to me. We're gonna call him M. Now M is really cute. He's tall with piercing eyes a great personality, funny and athletic. A total dreamboat. We had talked maybe once and I was fine with not really being noticed by him. I mean he seemed sweet but he looked like he got around. So after the test I met up with C and we started walking to his car. As we started walking he looked at me and was like, "Dude M has a thing for you." I stopped us in the middle of the hallway and asked him if he was joking. He said no and I'm not kidding I damn near fainted. So C gives me M's social media stuff and him and I started talking. And honestly from the very first moment we just clicked. It's now been a few weeks and we've gotten much closer. Honestly, I wouldn't be opposed to dating him. He's great with my friends and family, which is extremely important to me. He did however tell me about this girl that has a huge thing for him and I got the brilliant idea to look up this girl. Big mistake. As I'm scrolling through her pictures, I begin to notice something. She's absolutely beautiful. M assured me numerous times that he feels nothing for her and I believe him. The problem is she is just so pretty. I began feeling bad about myself. I'm a very self conscious person with a low self esteem. So just seeing the girl that he could chose (even though things between me and him are going perfectly) just really sucks. I hate how hard I am on myself and I don't want to ruin anything between me and this guy.
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