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My life is like an up and down spiral. My parents want more than they can get from me. It almost seems like they hate me. They tend to yell at me for tiny things, and they even blamed me for something that wasn't true. Lately, their yelling has been making me feel low. I already struggle with low self esteem and social anxiety, and it just makes me feel that there's something wrong with me. I feel so overwhelmed by being that one weird kid at school, the kid that is always never really appreciated about anything. I feel as if I want to disappear or run away. I don't want to say that I want to die, but it feels that way. I don't want to die or be dead, but I want to be freed from all the worries and unfortunate things that happen to me. It seems like none of the bads things seem to stop. I'm continually knocked down by something. I just want to be free, or is that just another way of me saying I want to disappear...
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Your not the only one my dear. I don't understand exactly, but I'm here to listen. I care for you and your heart. I know its hurting. You can get out of the house soon enough. I hope i will too. You are loved and cared for.
ReplyHey, you want to talk? Just about anything, let's chat :)
ReplyWhat is death? Is death nothing? Is it everything? Is it a new life? Or is it the end of the road? Sadly we will never know as death isn't mathematical or scientific, it is completely natural. Pain is not death nor is it a reason to die, pain is knowledge, we as a species would be nowhere without it. So why am I rambling on about death and pain? It is because I, you, we, us all need pain to learn from our previous experiences.
If your parents yell at you and that brings you pain, learn to ignore them. If they take things away from you, learn to live without them. If they abuse and hit you do not learn from them or that experience, do not repeat it, but if you feel the need to call the police, do. No one is worthless, and no one deserves to disappear. If life pushes you down, learn to get back up and beat its ass!
What I'm saying is that your parents cant control you, they cant ignore you, and they cant stop loving you. That's right, your parents love you, people naturally love everyone its just that the love is buried deeper for other people.
They love you, we love you, Accept this and all will be revealed.
Get back up.
ReplyYou remind me of me when I was 16. I’m 22 now. Live how you want to live. Don’t listen to people when they tell you who you are. Find yourself and live that self to your fullest. See the world, try new foods, meet new people. Your time will come and you will experience true happiness. But you have to be happy with you and your choices. Namaste
ReplyHonestly, I am going through the EXACT same thing. Down to every last detail I could have thought that I wrote this. If you ever need to talk I have time because honestly everything that you just said is so relatable.
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