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I can’t talk to anyone. Not now. I’m nothing extraordinary and I know what I’m about to type would alienate me from my friends and family, it already has. My whole life has been a boring and yet very strange and satisfying thing. It’s odd. I don’t want what I have because I think the worst of it.
I see things move in the dark, I see people where there are none and hear things as if they were right beside me. I’ve shown very few and very choice people what’s on the other side, because somehow, I can do that. I can move things without ever touching them. It’s not with the mind, but more of the magnetic pull and pushing of everything around us. I can dictate and predict what a person is thinking. I can become light. I have so much i need to overcome to become who I’m supposed to be. I hate the thought of being special, it makes me sick. I don’t wish to use myself as a form of praise. I hate myself. I really do. Everyday I want to die, and when I say it I mean, but I know I can’t. Not because of what I can do, but because I know it isn’t the right path.
The problem I’m having is, I’m supposed to help people and I’m in no shape to do it. I need help. I need advice. I used to think I was just crazy. Then I started showing people I trusted. Showing them what to look for. It was easy to spot once you saw it. I’m not looking for people to believe me here, I just want a chance to be heard. I’m worried that maybe someone would try to hurt me or my loved ones if they found out, because, isn’t that what we do? I’m worried I could show you the truth and you’d only see lies.
I can feel the electromagnetic waves and bubbles dancing all around me and I can see the vail. In fact I can grasp it like cloth between my hands and fingers.
I can open it, and I’m scared to. I’m afraid to because it will all come out. It will all be here. I’m afraid of this and I hate myself. I should die. Nobody, not someone like me should be able to do what I can. I know one day... I have to rip it open for all of the world to see, and I’m so scared for everyone I love and everyone I have yet to love... I can’t do this. I can’t be the right guy. It can’t be me. Whoever is reading this, please I need some kind of solice. Just something for me to grab a hold of for some hope. People seem to dream to be able to do what I can, as if it’s only a thing in movies... I promise you it isn’t. I’m scared guys... for all of us. I don’t know how to help when it opens I just know I have to. I don’t know why I can do the other things. Not a single clue, and the two people I’ve trusted enough to show... can’t tell me either, they just know what I can do is supposed to be impossible. It isn’t, not for any of us.
God is very real
He gave me something and took my hand, he told me I had to live for him, but everyone wants me to be...
normal. I want to be normal. I think I do. I just need advice.
If it were you looking at the people you loved, could you leave them all behind? No.
Could you kill yourself, and become new like I have to. Let the world forget, make yourself forget.
Everything. Everyone.
Every kiss.
Family get together.
Everytime you said I love you.
As I am now, I’m depressed and tired all of the time and I can’t even look at myself or my family. They think I’m a failure because, though it may be cliche’, they will never understand.
How do you tell your family and friends everything they are doing is wrong...
how...
You can’t, they just look at you like you’re stupid.
My advice.
Forget your biases
Religions
Stances on anything
Forget it.
You guys need to come together for peace yourself.
It shouldn’t have to be me who has to give up all the world has given me for love just to give you another chance.
I think the part that stings the most...
you won’t, and I will....
I hate this, I really do.
Please tell me I’m not alone and please somebody tell me something good... I feel so alone now.
God is the only one with me and I can’t look at him lately.
Someone has to be like me, out there, somewhere... I really need your help. Whoever you are.
I think I’ve dreamt about them, we were training together for something... they taught me how to do things better...
If anyone reads this. Please help me.
Someone has to be there.
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ReplyI can move objects, I know the way things will happen before they happen but not exactly how, I can see things that aren’t there and hear things... also... I can show people everything. If I trust them I just have to point and show them where to look or tell them what to do. I know things I shouldn’t know. I can manipulate water, fire and the magnetic fields around us
ReplyI know it sounds made up ok and that’s why I’m doing this here
Replyinteresting thought process you've got going on. As you've asked for help, I strongly recommend you find a clinical psychologist, who is most qualified to help you. best of luck to you.
ReplyThe first time it ever happened there were sparks all over my room for a while, all of a sudden I could move where light was focused, what looked like smoke came out of my hands after a while of freaking out and playing with it, and then I simply stirred my coffee...
ReplyWithout touching it...
ReplyI can’t find anything on the internet about anything other then the same bullshit I see everywhere else
ReplyI should mention there was someone with me the night it started and they saw everything
ReplyIt started as a joke, I just pointed at a spot and as a joke I said, watch, I’m going to move the light. Then we both freaked out for a good amount of time because it actually happened. All of a sudden I saw, idk, everything. All of it. I can’t explain it because it’s beyond me but it’s this thing that’s all around us, On us, and in us. I just remember thinking that night before it all happened. I’m sick of the TVs. I’m sick of my glasses, what if I not meant to see this way. I just remember being sick of seeing the world the way it is. I just want people to love eachother the real way. I was just sitting in silence. The person I was with was on their phone. I’m so tired of screens
ReplySorry. This is the first time I’ve really opened up about this
ReplyYou are NOT alone. Some have decided to hide for the very real reason that they will be called crazy! These gifts that seem like curses and make you feel “alone” in the world are really not for everyone to know. You just try to understand the reasons why YOU have them and you shall be at peace.
ReplyWhat if I can’t hide anymore
ReplySo there's Science and then there's Spirituality. Either way, you seem to have a unique gift. You're right, I always dream of harnessing your abilities. There has to be others with the same type of sensitivity to the external world. Good luck in your journey. It's impossible that you're alone in this. I hope you find your solace and support.
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