What are you looking for?
By Emma Lange
Is it wrong that I feel a sense of relief after my sick mother passing? I cared for her for so long and watched her suffer for even longer, watching her contemplate life in her last moments. It is in those actions that I find my happiness.
If I don’t live my life fully then what was the point of hers? Parents give their children life, but they also teach them everything that they know about life in the beginning.
My mom taught me so very much about love. I carry that love with me and am so relieved that she is not suffering anymore. I wish she were here to meet the next boy I date, or to sew that dress that is ripped at the hem, or to dance with me at my wedding. Alas, life is not what we plan and she will never be here to do these things with me.
I feel a sense of pride knowing that I cared for her in her last days. When I get lonely I call upon a friend or family member that knew her well and after a good honest conversation I feel more connected to her in the years that she has been sick.
I feel connected to this amazing spirit that created me and still cares and loves me even though her physical being is not here.