You'll Get Through This, Trust Me

As a child I grew up with parents that fought constantly. Over and over again, it never stopped. There were times when I thought they would get divorced. So many nights I would cry myself to sleep, trying to drown out the yelling.

The upside to it all was that my parents never hit each other, only verbal abuse. Which is still horrible. There were many times and many moments when I knew they loved each other. But if it wasn't for me, their only child, they would be living different lives right now. And as an only child I had no one to lean to, no shoulder to cry on, just my dog.

Throughout elementary and middle school I had a best friend, but later on in 7th grade she found a new best friend. Although that hurt, I had many friends growing up. The problem was that it never felt like anyone actually loved or cared for me.

I also grew up with many kids around me having depression. I knew I didn't have depression even though I had struggles that could lead to that. Many of my friends had depression, but it was never clear to me where it stemmed from. On the outside their lives seemed perfect. They had best friends, a happy family, and good grades.

As I got older I came to realize that you can't judge someone's life by what's seen on the surface though.

Even if you feel like you are alone, I assure you that there is someone who loves you in this world. Trust me that someone out there would do anything for you even if they are a complete stranger. Just know that it does get better.

Sharing my story on the internet to thousands of strangers seems much easier than telling someone who is close to me. For me, this is therapy. For me, writing is a way to get over everything and I hope you get something from it too.