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Thank You From The Bottom Of My Heart
By Novni Community Member
To my family, friends, therapist, and of course novni: Thank you.
Thank you for helping me see the light in my deepest pit of despair. Thank you all for sharing your experiences and feelings, as I have learned from them. Thank you for the encouraging words; I can now take them personally. Thank you for lifting me on my feet again. Thank you for showing me what life's worth living for. Thank you for helping me rewire my brain to accept positivity again. Thank you for helping me out of a seemingly endless life of anxiety and depression. Thank you for showing me what happiness is again.
This is coming from someone who struggled with mental health issues for a few years. I was at my worst last year; I was thinking about self-harm and I didn't see my purpose of living. I am much better now. I almost feel free from the darkness that was once my safe haven.
Although I can feel some left in me, I am able to control it and look at life from a new, positive perspective. I didn't know who I'd be without my mental burdens. I thought that if I lost those, I would lose a part of me, or all of me rather. I thought I would have to start new and learn how to feel every emotion again. And I did have to learn to an extent, but something clicked and I didn't feel consumed by my thoughts anymore. I am able to breathe, eat, laugh, sleep, and wake up feeling like I have a purpose. It is a whole new world.
Being happy again means that I'll give up my vices that reigned inside of my mind, but now I see that it's not something to be concerned about. In no way do I feel like I've lost something vital. I've lost something that could've potentially killed me. Thinking about that from the other side now utterly scares me. I'm better off being happy, it's a new comfort zone.
So if you've read this far, I'm here to tell you that you NEED to listen to that small amount of hope you still have inside of you. If you think your hope was lost a long time ago, it's just lost inside of you. You still have hope as long as you're alive. You have the potential to get better.
I promise you there will come a day where you will be able to see the world as a beautiful place and see yourself worthy enough to be here on it. Reach out to anyone you know with that tiny spark of hope that is still inside of you because eventually that spark will start a fire, and your life will be filled with light again.