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To The People Struggling With Anorexia
By Novni Community Member
This is a message to all the people living with anorexia. To all the hundreds of thousands of you out there...I want you to know that you're not alone.
I know what you're all probably thinking. "Yeah we read stuff like this all the time", but I'm also in the same position as you are. It sucks, I know. It's so overwhelming that you drown in fear of the numbers on the scale and that guilt deep inside keeps haunting you every second of the day.
I know how it feels. It's terrifying. You never see yourself getting thinner and thinner and when the numbers on the scale keeps going down you get relieved. But at the same time you are blinded to the sight of your health and well-being dropping to the point where your system is just about to stop. And when it does, everything just goes dark. Your body and system just stops. And there's not much you can do.
To the beauties out there dealing with anorexia, you're not alone. This unhealthy relationship between us and our body has to stop. It's not easy, I understand. Myself and my body haven't improved much. And it's frustrating when you use all your spare time to exercise and throw up the food you consumed and when you look at yourself in the mirror, nothing changed. I know how that disappointment feels. I also know how that disappointment leads to self torture by starving yourself by your own threatening thoughts. I understand. And I also realize that we need help.
I'm not that type of person who can just talk about this and seek help openly. And I understand that a lot of you may feel the same way as I do. Hey, guess what? We have each other. And I'm not gonna say things like "You're beautiful just the way you are" or "What matters is the beauty inside".
We all know that, but we don't truly believe it. And we are here in the first place due to the beauty standards society puts on us, am I right? So I'm just gonna remind you about this: There's much more to life than the numbers on the scale.
You are not a sketch. You are so much more than that, and you know it. Let's be realistic for a second. I'm too short to be a model, and I'm too fat to be one. But I bet there are loads of opportunities out there waiting for me. Some probably will turn out to be more important or special to me than being a model or a pretty face.
You are so much more than that. You health and well-being is worth so much more than that, and you know it. Anorexia is just a huge cliff stopping you from getting to your ultimate destination.
So, what do we do now? We build the bridge. Yes, not instantly. It needs planning and it needs to go through trials and errors. But if we put our minds to it, we'll build that bridge and walk ourselves to the other side in no time.
To all the people trying to fix themselves from anorexia, you're not alone. I'm here, we're all here, all hundreds of thousands of us. There's hope for you and me.