Addiction

Around 6 years ago, I didn't know it, but my life slowly was being destroyed. For a long time I blamed other people, and experiences I had with other people for my depression. It took me a long time to realize I was self destructive. There was nobody to blame besides me. My addiction isn't to drugs, or alcohol, its to porn and masturbation. It is such a hard battle to fight. Sometimes I go a few days, sometimes a few months. I can never fully get a handle on it. It makes me feel disgusted about myself, and I feel more and more guilty every time I slip up. I believe in God, and I feel like this habit is definitely a sin. I look back now and realize my life could have been a lot different If I was never introduced to porn. I'm so mad at myself, it's hard to look at myself in the mirror. To the average guy, I doubt they are this hard on themselves for this act, but for me I feel immense guilt. I have been trying to quit for a couple of years now, but no luck really. This isn't something I talk to anyone about, so posting on here is the only way to vent about my problem. Not exactly something you want to bring up with your parents or anyone really.