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so, i have fallen for my best friend. we go to the same college and live in the campus hostel and hence, we spend a lot of time together. so it's a group, of 4 people. 2 boys, 2 girls. we 4 understand each other, we are always there for each other, we have each person's back. trust me, we love each other's company.
now about me, i don't open up with everybody. i'm uptight and straightforward. and hence i know what i am feeling inside, yet, i can't talk to anyone about it. so one of the guys has fallen for my best friend. he loves her, and he confessed that to me. we have spoken about his feelings towards her every night. he opened up about a lot of stuff to me. he would spend days and nights talking about her. but she was dating someone else back then. then later things were getting messy for her, and he couldn't deal with his feelings any more. he got restless and really wanted to tell her how much he cares for her and how her current relationship isn't healthy. and really, it wasn't a healthy relationship.
so i helped him get through everything and gave him the courage to go and talk to her and confess his feelings. he was really scared about how things would turn out, but it went quite well. she said she liked him too and now they sorted everything and have started dating.
in all this, somewhere inside, when we spoke everyday, i started liking how he thought of things, how he looked at the world, his perception. but somehow i felt, nothing is going to happen between them and hence, i didn't quite wonder a lot.
and after they started dating, they would be their true self in front of us, teasing each other, PDAing and stuff, something i thought won't bother me at all, but i was wrong. but i cannot tell anyone i like him because he is clearly in love with her and she is very happy too.
i know nothing is going to happen, but it kills me inside to have feelings for him and not do anything about it. and its not the kind where you like how the person looks, or how he treats you. it is a pure form of affection towards him in terms of the way he talks, how positively he thinks of things, and what kind of a human he is.
i really don't want to hurt him. i thought over time i'll get over him. we have our summer break right now and everyone is back home and those two meet everyday and they tell me how happy they both are. i thought i wont meet him and things will be fine, but as it turns out, i am not handling this quite well.
i have had feelings for him since 4 months now. i thought this would all fade and everything would get back to normal, but i am no where close to being fine. it kills me everyday.
even after a week or so, we 4 decide to meet and i get all happy to see him after long, but he comes and starts talking to his girlfriend. its like he has forgotten what he had before.
i lost the guy i like, my bestfriend. i know the guy i care for and think about everyday, doesn't even bother to care about me. although, once upon a time, he did.(i'm 19 by the way)
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i know how hard it is to have feelings for someone who has feelings for someone else, and even to have to hear about it. i’m sorry you feel like you lost ur friendship, sometimes thats the worst part. try to reconnect, even just as friends. if he doesn’t want to, that’s his loss.
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