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So, im a 34 yr old male, self employed, I have no one to talk to, I wish I could get some advice or be pointed in the right direction. I have often contemplated suicide but it would not be fair to my wife or son. I just feel so lost not knowing what to do as I sit here in my business watching it slowly fall down. Ive been in this business (vehicle auto parts sales) for the last 16 years, I made it grow from 3 figure daily sales to 4 to 5 figures, I was proud, happy and content. My son was born and I was the happiest ever. I recently bought a house, literally my dream house and knew this is it, this is me making a future for my family. All was well until May 2018 when I found out a much bigger opposition will be opening up shop in the town where Im based, I started to stress so much, until the day arrived when they opened. Since then ive been a ball of emotions, so mentally unstable and distant, it has affected me badly and ive learnt theres no such thing as loyal customers. Ive talked to my wife, she is supporting me but little does she know how broken I am inside. The business is slowly dwindling, I remain hopeful that it will change but I am also a realist and can see its going to get worse or have a significant drop, a drop enough to make me sell my house if something does not come through. I dont have spare money to open another business and I know full and well this is how business goes, opposition, price, location etc. I sit here wondering how can this happen now? why when ive just bought a house, when ive just started a family, why now and not when I was younger with almost no responsibilities. I fear how im going to able to provide for my son, give him a good education and let him grow up well, there are days when I just tear driving home. As you would know, there are very few people who worry about a person who is in need of help or has problems and the majority are glad you have those problems. That is why I write this as there has been no one to reach out to. I am so stressed, every day the though of suicide comes to mind but I think of my boy and realise its not the way. I have faith in god and know things happen for a reason but for some reason I just cannot see the bigger picture here. I guess time will tell, until then I sit and remain hopeful, I just dont know how much longer I can take this stress, it killing me, ive never had stress like this before. And yes, I know there are people in this world with much bigger problems, much less fortunate but we are all individuals faced with different situations, I guess all is in Gods hands now.
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I'm sorry to hear about your troubles and as someone who attempted suicide not more than a month ago I can tell you it isn't worth it seriously the pain it causes other people is horrifying. Have you thought of maybe reaching out to the competition and seeing if they are willing to buy into your store as a kind of branch of there's I know this would mean that it wouldn't be your buisness anymore but you would still have a job and your family would still have a home or you could reach out to people you know who would be willing to go into buisness with you maybe a mechanic so not only are you selling the parts but you can fit it to just some food for thought it's not going to be easy but if you hold onto your hope and try to see positives I believe that you can get through this just remember that only you have the power to change your future have faith and view all other avenues before you give up hope. I don't know if any of this has helped you, I wish you all the best in the future and just remember this community is here for you so if you need to come vent some more.
ReplyThank you for your words of support, I feel much better having written this, its so tough not having a person to talk to, you end up in a cold and dark place but I will not give up hope.
ReplyI know that feeling but you have plenty of people to talk to especially in this community we don't judge all we do is help each other out as much as possible so feel free to vent whenever you want 😁😁 also have you thought about talking to your wife about what's going on and how it's making you feel trust me she will be supportive and she might even have some ideas 😁😁
ReplySo sorry you are struggling at this time. I have been in dire financial straights also. It forced me to turn to God in a desperate but earnest way. I believe because of experience that God can do anything. He wants us to turn to Him in the difficult times. He is there, He really is. 1 Peter 5:7, " cast all your cares on Him, because He cares for you." Praying for you.
ReplyThank you so much, Im really hoping business picks up, I have alot of faith in God.
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