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They are staying over for the summer holidays. It’s been a week with them here, and I still have to attend school, but they’re ruining my life. Just like they had when they ever see me. But now they’re staying over.
They’ve been tormenting me. Ripping up my work, stealing my pens, throwing my school bag around, messing my room, eating my own food, and digustingly harassing me. I was trying to have a shower, and they wouldn’t leave me alone. I told my mom and she thought I was being silly, and then she told them off lightly.
After that, as I was showering, they came in the room and pretended to take pictures of me- or that’s what my mom told me they were doing. I have no idea if they own my naked self on their phones.
The emotions I had felt. The pain. The uncomfort. Being embarrassed and constantly worrying for what you might wake up to, might sleep to, or might come back home from school to.
My mom doesn’t believe me at all. And my older brother and his friends. They don’t stop.
I want to rip them to shreds. I’ve never felt so much anger and hurt boil and become one. I hate this feeling. It chokes me. But I hate them more. hate my elder brother, and my mom. I hate the fact that I’ll always be her last thought.
I hate the fact that I can’t do anything. And I fear the fact that it will get worse.
This feeling doesn’t make me want to “kill myself in any way,” I want to die, strictly and only by pushing myself off a building. I can’t help it. I want to murder them, and kill myself. I have gone insane. I keep crying because of this. When I finish school they’ll still be here to hurt me. I have no escape. Please, what do I do?!
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Okay first things first as you didn't state are you male or female ? I understand you're upset I would be too ultimately I don't think your mom feels empowered enough to actually do anything they're all boys and dependant on age that could be a scary thing for her. You could ultimately contact the police as you don't feel safe in your own home but more than likely they will either not do anything or it would go down as negligence which could have severe repercussions on your family have you tried talking to someone at school maybe your councillor or just any teacher really because if it's effecting your school work they could get involved. I'm sorry that you're having to go through this nobody should but you did the right thing in opening up to often people let it build up inside and when it boils over it's not pretty. I hope I've been helpful ? And if you need anymore advice feel free to ask and I will help as much as I can.
ReplyMale. School is absolute shit, just my getaway, but they really don’t do anything. I was told I would have a “mentor” to help me talk about my problems, and no one really came at all. They’d also inform the police, and as you said, I would be separated from my “family,”. My dad has been long gone since, so I wouldn’t know where I would go except be taken in care by a guardian?.. I wouldn’t prefer that, and I wouldn’t prefer the life I have right now. Family has definitely worsened after my father died, and they don’t realise it.
ReplyOkay so it seems that you have 2 options then which I know it sucks but you've either got to get the police involved if you fear for your own safety it's a hard choice to make but in all honesty you need to think about yourself and the 2nd option is you stand up for yourself it might work but it might not and also tell your mum how you feel and I'm sure if you tell her that you don't feel safe in your own home and that you're thinking about contacting the police she might realise how neglective she has been.
ReplyI’ll just tell her that I’ll call the police but.. I doubt she’ll actually process the words and understand me. She just tells me that siblings fight all the time.
But my brother and his friends.. I have no idea what they do outside our home. They’re sketchy, and they come back home and hurt me. I know it will worsen once they get even more comfortable. I’ll.. warn the police of what’s happening on a casual line. They’ll most likely tell me to call them if my case does happen to worsen, or they’ll talk and bring this case in significance, specifically zone in on the cause of my brothers (and his friends) behaviour, which could be an effect of drugs or bad influence, or negligence from my mothers care. I seem like a pussy, I can’t argue, but thanks for helping a wuss anyways.
ReplyYour not bud trust me I didn't learn to stick up for myself until I was 16 so don't worry about it but the most likely thing is negligence but you will have to state that you HAVE tried to talk to your mum on multiple occasions. And it's my pleasure to help 😁😁 let me know how it goes so I will know you're going to be okay
ReplyIt sounds complicated. But you have to be brave you know. You didn't mention your age or gender so I don't understand your problem completely. But the thing that I Can tell you is that ending their or your life is not a solution. It might suffocate you but thing of the kids who are suffering from something worse than you are. They are dieing for no reason,living with the lack of the most basic things and much more. When you feel alone ,put yourself in their shoes and just thing of all your blessings. It will help.
ReplyMale, in my late fourteens. I cannot sympathise if I know nothing about it. Yeah, people die, and it’s sad, but being upset and making myself more upset doesn’t seem to help. I know what you mean with the blessings and all but.. in my position I can’t bring myself to think positively, at least not when my family seems to be spiralling downwards. Im glad I have a roof over my head, I just have no one to share the love with.
Bless those who face pain they don’t deserve, anyways.
ReplyTry to be optimistic...I just read a quote...It snows as late as may but summer always comes eventually. She was a victim of severe abuse and now leading a successful life.
ReplyStay with a friend
Get fart spray
Iching powder
Stay in your mom's room
Stay with friend
Pepper spray
Ghost pepper food record it post it
Laxative in drinks record it post it
Move away become a monk
These are fun but talk to your mom
ReplyBeen there, done that. Prank wars don’t work if you’re versing 4 others. Can’t stay with a friend cuz they won’t understand the situation; and cuz I’m not close enough with any of them.
My mom will not let me sleep in her room. Period. and as I’ve said, I’ve spoke to my mom. She has the brain of a brick wall. So yeah. Uhh.. thanks for the fun suggestions.
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