Life

If i had a superpower it would be the ability to see life through the lenses of others

I whole heartedly believe i would benefit from the opportunity to feel pain or happiness from someone else’s perspective

Does happiness really exist?

Is happiness a made up feeling?

Or is it just something I can dwell on while living in constant pain

I’m covered by a dark cloud that follows me everywhere like a scared puppy

I can’t escape my mind nor can I stop it from thinking

When my ways to cope don’t work I stare at the ceiling

Hoping that the answers to life will fall from it

I don’t wanna die or be blind but I wish I could glue my eyelids shut

Because they say seeing is believing

And I don’t believe what I see

Because anything is easily manipulated

Like the genuine look a liar gives you when their being dishonest

I wish I was back in the place I called home

Not my home but my home

The place where my mind didn’t wonder where ever

And the only thing I pondered on was what life would be like when I grew up

Because now that grew up I wish I could rewind and see time for what it really is ...... an illusion

The time it took for me to transition from adolescence to adulthood was instantaneous

You can count seconds but time still travels at the speed of light

You can count minutes but time still travels at the speed of light

You can count days but time still travels at the speed of light

We count each year the we are alive and don’t realize how quickly it happens

Since I was nonexistent 25 years ago my life is just a ripple in time not a riddle of time

I was born last night but I’m 20 years of age

Wishing I was 5 again or 4 or 3 or 2 or 1 or ...........