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I feel worthless.
Unlovable.
Pathetic.
Ugly.
And any other words you would use to describe a deformed failure like me.
Nobody loves me and it’s not hard to see why but...sometimes i wish people cared about me. Admittedly, I’m a little touch starved as I don’t think I’ve had any skin to skin contact aside from a brief hug or just accidental grazes in years. I used to be comforted by my mother braiding my hair or washing my hair in the sink which was enough for me to get by but now that my hair is dreaded that doesn’t happen anymore.
It’s feels awful wanting something I can’t have, wanting something I don’t deserve. I just wish I wasn’t the way I was. Can’t I just be normal? Other people don’t crave touch the way you do, don’t crave to be acknowledged the way you do, why can’t you be like them? Is what I say to myself, but even when I scold myself and punish myself for being like this, the feeling doesn’t fade, it only intensifies.
WHY DO I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE ME AND NOT THROUGH ME? WHY DO I WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW THAT IT FEELS LIKE IM DYING ON THE INSIDE? WHY DO I WANT SOMEONE, ANYONE TO JUST HUG ME AND TELL ME ITS ALRIGHT? WHY DO I WANT SO DESPERATELY FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE ME EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THATS NOT PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE?
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