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I'm currently a third-year college student. I have gone through a few tragic happenings in the past few months. I thought it didn't affect me, and I was emotionless for the past month and a half... but I wasn't. I had not really internalized what was happening until today. I noticed how unmotivated and 'meh' I've become. I thought I was just feeling 'yolo' vibes but honestly, I wasn't. I realized I was just becoming reckless and careless because I didn't want to come to terms with reality. I didn't want to understand my anxiety, my panic attacks, my stress or 'no stress' because I didn't want to accept that they're gone. I have become so behind in classes. I wanted to give up. On the outside, I'm fine, I'm an extrovert, I play with my friends, but inside I know its an act for the moment. I'm afraid, lonely, and lost. I gathered all of my courage and contacted psychological services on campus but I can't see them until next week. It was so hard to call, I was mid mental breakdown and wasn't sure of myself, but called, but it was no use because I need to wait. I almost called the suicide prevention line but my feelings aren't that deep, right? So there's no need wasting some on me when there could be a rougher case out there. I'm just so unsure. I feel worthless, I feel ashamed. I am not the person I used to be anymore, and I'm scared of myself and my future. I just needed to express my feelings somewhere and to someone but I don't think I can to my closest friends or distant ones because I'm not so sure and again, I'm afraid...
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I'm glad you came to terms with what's screwing you up internally. You need to find a release, and no better way than confiding in a friend/family member. Or even anonymously. Don't keep pent up outbreaks, that's just adding fuel to fire. Tc
ReplyAfter I read your comment it somehow gave me a little more courage. I was able to kind of talk with a friend, not the full details but she even told me that she is going through depression too and there were so many things I wasn't aware of. I'm glad we talked a little and got closer. Thanks for the push, it really helped.
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