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Before I had someone that depended on me completely I was ready to leave this life. Quite honestly absolutely everything was pointless. I had a good job, a place to stay. Everything was caught up and taken care of. My body was astounding. I could do whatever I wanted ... I was at that nice young age where I was old enough to know better, but young enough to not be wise still. Everyday was a mirage of bad decisions. Might I name a few but I'd rather just leave that topic a blank slate. All in all, every single day was absolutely the same. A constant cycle of everything that was worth nothing to me.
Times have changed, however. My new dependent has changed my life completely. I don't see anything the same. I don't dread going to work because without it I couldn't take care of and spoil my family. I don't dread going to the grocery store because now I will never eat alone. Going to the bathroom at home isn't "play on your phone time," it's 100% story time, bring toys. Going for a drive in the car isn't just a from point A to point B trip, it's a musical with tiny voices butchering lyrics in the backseat with such splendid smiles. Going to school isn't boring, it's bettering the future of my family and setting an example.
And most of all. Waking up isn't so hard, because the love I see when I look into the eyes of my child is everything I need to keep me going. The timid gloss across my child's eyes is what drives me to change myself for the better each day because my child knows no struggle other than lost toys, empty cuppies and dropped snacks.
My child loves me despite all my struggles. Being a mother has saved me.
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This is so beautiful! :)
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