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Hello! First time writing and even telling people about what I had in mind for quite some time. To begin with, I applogise if there is any grammar mistakes or spelling errors. I really not looking for an advice, but just wanted to let my feelings out.
I am a 25 years old girl who had 0 experience in relationships at all to begin with. So I met this guy in an event around 2016, and he really caught my eyes, with his smile and the way he talks. In the end we added each other online and started to have small conversations and found out we have some similiar interests. Slowly I found out he actually is mutual friends with a few of my friends too. I got more interested in him and we slowly became good friends and share each others' backgrounds and stories. After a year we met, we appeared in events together more frequently, and my friends starts to think that he is my boyfriend. Also, I ended up confessed to him about my feeling just after a year we met (Yes, I am pretty fast on these I guess? Idk, i feel like it and so I did it) and of course I already had expected, he sort of rejected me, i say sort of, is because he told me this isn't a rejection but is because he is not interested in having relationships anymore with anyone because of his previous relationships hurt him badly. We did not feel awkward or even fall apart, but became really good friends, and just act like is nothing (he did thanked me and say I was really courageous enough to tell him)
We ended up remain as good friends and still go events, even hanging out together in his hometown when I visited my relatives who stayed near him, and even had our Facebook cover changed to match each other as a joke on Valentines. At first I thought is just a harmless thing to do, and until I realise that this is just making myself sunk deeper into my crush than moving on. I still feel blushing and excited whenever I met his eyes, but he is really a great friend and nice guy. I never want to lose him as a friend, losing this friendship would really hurt me, yet I could not say no to him.
I am tired of myself, but yet I am just making myself liking him more and more especially my friends always teases me. I know I won't move on, until I find someone else in my life. Yes, I know is just an unrequited love, i know i could find someone else, and even he told me I will find one one day too. I also would love to see him finding someone else thag he really loves and enjoy his life with whoever he finds, to me, as long as he is happy, I am glad, because he isnt just my crush but also a great friend. Maybe I am not the one, maybe we are meant to be just friends, yet I do have that 0.001% in me is secretly hoping is me. Whatever it is, I also would love to wish him happiness and finding someone to be with.
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