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Honestly what's so bad with being the way I am? Sure I choose to be the funny guy in the room and yeah I'm young and still got a lot to learn about life and is that such a bad thing? Well everyone else seems to think so and it's really getting me down. Sure Im officially an adult (even though legally at 18 your and adult but no one treats ya like one.) this year and I'm facing some issues. I get treated like a child while my sister who is in fact still a child gets treated like she's the older sister by my whole family. Now why is that. Does being an adult mean you can't make jokes? if so then I never wanna be one. Does it mean I gotta have already had like 20 boyfriends? Because if that's the case then I'm in poor luck. Honestly what makes her more mature? Because the only thing she's got on me is that she's been to second base and I might as well have never even breath the same air as some one who could possibly almost be a potential suitor. And is that so wrong? If it is then I should just kill myself right now because if no one has wanted to date me by now Im pretty sure it's never gonna happen unless I somehow miraculously get rich and famous. But we all know that's never gonna happen. Sure I look and dress like a hobo bag lady despite having a great fashion sense when it come to dressing people other than myself. But what's wrong with that? Doesn't mean I can't be an adult. And then there's the fact that people make me nervous and I refuse to talk to anyone outside my family circle but I blame that on my upbringing. How did my parents think I was gonna turn out by telling me everyone out there either wants to rape you, kill you, or rape and kill you. People are scary. But Hey I still graduated, I still went to college but stopped because I can't pay for it an am not smart enough to get a scholarship but I'm working on that! I apply to jobs but I don't speak Spanish so no one in the area wants to hire me. Not my fault my parents said I have no business learning how to drive because i don't have a car so I can't go out of the area to get a job. I'd take a bus but again My parents say they don't want me taking a bus and even if they let me I would probably get lost because because no one will teach me how to navigate the bus system and I don't have money for a phone so no google maps! everyone already tried to say I could just use google maps but I ain't got no money where would I get a phone like come on? Let me see, what else is wrong with me? Wow this is hard there is so much. That was me making a joke by the way it was funny so laugh.Oh I said my parents wouldn't teach me how to drive right? well guess what's the icing on the metaphorical cake? yep that's right they will teach my LITTLE sister but not me. Oh but don't let me know because I asked and they said no but she asks and they didn't even have to think. Oh but my sister likes to brag so she "accidentally " let it slip in front of me that she asked the same day after I did and they said yes. So like what's the problem with me? I'll tell you, I as in Me ZE WRITER! Doesn't take things seriously. HA! when I'm over here putting plans into action, scheduling interviews, Planning budgets, Logging Hours, Getting Certified, and so much more and I'm not taking anything seriously. while my sister is thinking (she keeps whining to me about it at least) about dropping out of her "school"( that she only go to twice a week) because its too hard when she literally just decides she doesn't want to go and doesn't go so she falls behind. Oh but that's not even her biggest problem. Her biggest problem is that a guy who I can tell just wants to mess around is moving and is trying to get in her pants before he leaves (at least i think so) isn't texting her or she feels weird about seeing him because he's not her boyfriend but she wants him to but but doesn't at the same time. Oh and this guy also kissed our cousin supposedly and tried to kiss our cousin (the one he kissed) 's little sister while he was "high" or drunk I really could give two nickels what he puts in his pickle hole. But that's all she's worried about and I'm the one that's not taken seriously. Like what is this? I'm making plans to move out while she is worried about some guy who I keep telling her (everyone else too) is no good. Honestly some times I just ask myself. Is it even a problem?
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It is a problem. Parents like yours are toxic, mine are similar, but not quite as bad. Your youngef sibling is hoing yo have to learn eventually, so look at it this way, If in the end you can't get them(parents) to help you, reach out to a professor or something, surely one of them might be willing to help you out. I have always seen teachers as a type of plan B if your parents aren't really doing their job. If not a professor, than dome other adult, an aunt or uncle, maybe a grandparent. Find someone who is willing to help, I would try and help but In all honesty I'm not even past 15 yet, but I would help if I could!
ReplyThe sentiment is still appreciated. But even if you could help I would not accept it. I believe I need to do things on my own in order to prove my non existent worth. Besides I could get parents to help me I just choose not to because 1. I am considerate and know they got their own stuff to deal 2. any expenses need to come out of my own pocket because if my parents pay for it they would hold it of my head for the rest of all eternity and maybe even a minuet after until what is left of our rotting corpses burn up into nothing when the earth finally plummets into the Sun.
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