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i never really realised that i was fat until my mum said that i was gaining weight. i looked at myself then i saw that yeh she was right. at first i didnt really care but then two years later which is like now, i was afraid of being judged. i wasnt the "popular" type in my year and i knew that people talked about others behind their backs. i became self conscious. i told myself to stop eating so much but i couldnt hold back sometimes. i ate too much and i felt so bloated and fat. i purposely threw up to get rid of most of the things i ate. ive been doing this for a long time now but im still fat and its kinda sad. i dont want to tell anyone bcos i dont want people to worry. also i feel like they will judge me.
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Bulimia means denying your existence. Try to control your thoughts at least once a day. I suggest in the morning because your first thought can shape the entire day. When you wake up take 10 deep breaths and after that express gratitude for being alive, having a comfy bed, roof over your head and food that keeps you alive. If you're able, look yourself in the mirror and say I love you, I accept, all is well. Be willing to change your mental pattern that allows you to gain weight. Try mental diet from negative thoughts.
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ReplyDon't worry i do the exact same thing, I stress eat and it's really bad. i am attempting to stop though its hard. dont worry about being 'fat'. everybody has different shaped and sized bodies and different genetics that determine them, even though you might feel like everyone around you has 'perfect' bodies, not everyone in the real world does. i used to always criticise my body, pulling at it and calling myself fat and ugly but then i realised that things i saw in other people that didnt necessarily look bad i saw in myself and thought that they looked bad. im still working towards eating healthily and thinking positively about my body, its going to be a long hard journey but i know that we can both do it.
Replywell our culture doesnt exactly raise us to take care of our bodies, most sont know what to eat, and by the time we are oh idk in highschool, many of us have been trained on bad food. heres the hard part: nobody should be trying to self improve because of what others think, #1 priority above all else is how do you feel? how does your body feel, not: how do you feel about your appearance but actually how does your body feel. if you put your focus on what your body tells you you will see that soon you will actually have the upper hand because you are also paying attention to the kind more, dont try to super focus on anything or dont try* to do anything but rather just *notice*
that being said everyone i mean everyone has ways to lower or passify energy/emotions, meat, bread, anything higher in fats calms the energies of the bodymind, some people drink some do drugs some people watch soap operas but for same reason everyone has something so no more throwing up thats not logical you know that lol but even if you do stay hydrated you know i knew a girl whos sinuses got messed up because of throwing up every day.
also personally i feel its much easier to make the body 'spend' energy to digest the food because you realise thats how metabolism works, sont be fooled by how you were raised thinking that certain foods or any food just adds on fat. just know that you are fine how you are. say to yourself: if i want to get healthier then ill work towards that but not because i want to be seen as this kind of person or that kind of person but just because it feels good to feel good. Also fuck the weight thing just stop weighing yourself altogether trust me its sooo much less stress in life to just not care about all that and just watch change happens with fortitude resilience and wisdom
ReplyChange what doesn't suit you. Don't wait!
So that in the process you become more stronger, more powerful because all the challenges in life require struggle, they require some change in the self to achieve the goal.
This is a good thing behind struggle, Is it not?
With Love!
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