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I hate being black. I hate when im told that a girl wont date me just because of my skin, even if me and her get along really well. I hate the stares I get when I am walking down the street, and how people clutch their bags or look me up and down as if ive already done something wrong. I hate being told by my parents that I should date only black girls, or that I need more black friends. I hate having to constantly be strong and resilient when it feels like everyone in the world is against me for something I could not control. I hate how big my lips are and how they get chapped easily. I hate how every racial joke is thrown at me. I hate how I have to work twice as hard just to prove that I am competent. I hate constantly having to fight with my emotions and keep a smile on my face no matter what happens to me, because the second I lash out and do what I feel, I am labeled as the "crazy black guy". I hate that I have to write this out in order to feel a little peace of mind. I hate thinking that I may never truly be at peace with myself due to something that I have zero control over. I hate reading a racial book in class and having people look at me to see my reaction whenever the teacher says the N word. I hate having to always think, "Is it okay if I talk to them? Do they like black people? I dont want to cause any trouble for myself or them." I hate the tension, the feeling when you know you're not liked because of your race. I hate having to adjust my personality around people to be more or less ghetto. I hate not having anyone to talk to or someone who relates to how I feel. I hate when im followed around in the store out of suspicion that I might steal something. Out of everything I just typed the one thing that I absolutely without a doubt cannot stand the most, is that I may never love myself, and if I cant love myself how will someone else? Is it all just a endless downward spiral of constant hate,fighting, anxiety, sadness, and fear? I hope not.
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I had to respond to this because it fucking makes me sick. No one should be treated like this, and ESPECIALLY not because of their skin color. I'm white and I work in fast food, so I often get people treating me like shit and letting little racist comments slip, but nothing like what you're going through. I want to personally apologize for all the hate, all the assumptions, and the fact that you can't even express yourself. You deserve better and I hope you make a point of remembering that. Have a beautiful night x
ReplyI cannot relate but I can empathize. I am sorry that society is still so ignorant and awful. I hope that you continue to have the strength to carry on. Just from your post, you are clearly intelligent and have great insight into your situation and feelings. Keep pushing forward, you are worthwhile!
ReplyI am not black. I am Hispanic and I feel like nowadays with everything going on it is so hard to be a person of color in today’s society. I am in no way saying it’s the same thing bc people go through many different things. You do not and should not have to date or have friends of a certain race. It is all up to you. You control your life. Prove those people in your class or in the streets that they have the wrong impression of you. Show them who you are because although I may not know you I am positive you are a great person. Be you. Be happy. Do you . Don’t hate on yourself don’t hate The color of your skin. You are amazing. You were created just the way you are. It is so easy to hate yourself but don’t do that. Don’t give in to those idiots that give you looks. Be proud of who you are. At the end of the day personality takes all.
ReplyReally your teacher uses the N word? I hope its only for teaching purposes. That shouldn't be acceptable. Id be offended if a teacher used a racial slur about my race. Anyway love yourself for who you are. If people want to judge because of color they are really shallow. Your obviously not a bad person. Theres nothing wrong with you ok. love you for you and if people don't well its their loss.
ReplyIf the teacher is black the N-word can, and is used Loosely if class is black too.
White teacher, and white students. GOD NO!!
JUST SAYING
ReplyShe only used it to read Huck Finn and she said it once so the class understood the gravity of the word, so I guess it was for education purposes. Im not mad at her though. I just remember the stares from everyone, as if they were waiting to see my explode, it hurt.
ReplyThat must be really hard, I can't even imagine what that is like. You are amazing though, never forget! People who treat you bad or make assumptions about you because of your skin color are just showing who they are - they're showing that they are abusive and assumptive/foolish. It reflects on them, not you. Anyone who is smart and compassionate wouldn't treat another person like that because of their skin color.
ReplyYour doing fine. Just pretend that nothing is bothering you, and People who are trying to get under your skin will leave you alone or give up.
ReplyYeah, I was told the same thing by my mother at a young age. The long term effects however are quite damaging. I bottle up my emotions because I have to in order to protect myself and honestly I think that feeds the depression. But thank you for the kind words. I appreciate them.
ReplySomeone is always going to hate you , regardless of your skin color , you have to just hold yourself to the expectation you want others to see, your dedication and demeanor says a lot. If I was wearing clothes that weren’t proper in public I would feel like I was walking nearly naked through the streets . Being well dressed all the time boosts your mood knowing you look good every time you look in the mirror . Fear is good in a way because it makes you have the will Power to overcome those bridges .
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