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I don't necessarily know where to begin with this. I'm 17 years old, on the verge of turning 18 (not like that's relevant anyway). So I've been doing drugs for a few years now. Initially started with Marijuana as most people do. My good mate pressured me into doing it and I buckled. Didn't really think much of it initially, but I liked it. Few months go by... I'm beginning to smoke by myself, move onto harder drugs, more of them and more often. You get my point. By the age of 17 years old, I can shamefully admit that I have taken:
- Marijuana
- MDMA
- Cocaine
- Heroin
- Ketamine
- Oxycodone
- Xanax
- Valium
- Codeine
- LSD
- Promethazine
And all of these drugs at least at some stage I was doing on a regular occasion (with exception of Heroin and Promethazine). After a few years, I've come to realise the negatives outweigh the positives. But I can't stop. I've gotten to a point where I need them. My body craves them. I don't feel right when I'm not on drugs. Sobriety kills me. I can't imagine the thought of living a sober life. I'm so reliant on them and I have become so disappointed in myself because I put everything after drugs. My mental state, my belongings, my loved ones. Every single time drugs come first. But I can't help it, it's an instinct. I need help. I need help bad :( So I'd thought I'd start here...
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Get yourself into a program. You have done the first step which is admitting you have a problem and that you need help. Good job!
Next step is to seek out the help.
One step and one day at a time!
You can get to the other side of this even if it feels like you can't believe that right now.
I wish you strength !
Replyconsult a therapist. get into a program. only that will help.
Replyhonestly, the fact that you recognize that you need help is amazing. keep your head up, stay strong. get into a program and continue to ask for help! people are out there to help and the only thing you have to do is keep an open mind and let them, no matter how hard it will be.
i wish the best for you!!
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ReplyRecognising that there's a problem is the first step to recovery, and you should definitely be proud of yourself for admitting this. The next step would be getting into some sort of program. It's difficult to imagine a sober life but once you have it and find things that you love it will be a million times easier. If you have some sort of motivation to stop then you're one step ahead of yourself, and that's a good thing. It'll take time, and just know that relapse is part of recovery and so you shouldn't be disappointed if it happens. It just gives you more motivation to get some help. I wish you all the best of luck (:
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