I hate myself

I've been struggling with binge eating for that past 8 months. It happens nearly everyday. I'll eat until I can't move. I can't wear a bra because I'm so full it makes it too hard to breathe. And of course even if it's been a few hours since my last binge I can't put on regular clothes besides sweatpants because I'm so bloated. I've tried to get help from my sister my counselor and my doctor. I'm a healthy weight but I've gained 10 pounds in the past year. None of them take me seriously but it makes me hate myself so much. And it makes it too hard to focus on school and tasks that need to be done in my home. I don't know if they don't take me seriously because I'm not overweight and binge eating without purging is generally seen as a struggle for someone who is overweight. But I'm gaining weight and if I don't get help I know where I'm going. I can't stop myself and no one takes me seriously.