still tired.

god if i could just find the words to explain to someone how i felt right now. i still, can't. find. the. words. i can't begin to explain it. I've tracked on my phone how many times a day i feel my unknown feeling and its been increasing. maybe once a week if im lucky i don't feel it. I'm so tired. it makes me so incredibly empty and i don't tell anyone about my feeling. my mom knows about it but she's known about this little "feeling" since i was younger so its not really a big deal to her. i felt this feeling just a little bit when i was younger, but now this feeling has changed, gotten deeper. this feeling has cut further, it makes more of an impact every time. i can't move or do anything when i feel it. i literally sit there and want to cry. it won't go away and I'm so tired of dealing with it. i could be doing the best thing in the entire world and still feel it. it comes inn waves, but multiple times a day. sometimes right when i wake up, sometimes in the middle of the day, its always random but awful each and every time. i really just don't know what to do anymore.