I Trusted You

Dear ex-best friend,

It's been 2 years since we have last spoke, I miss you sometimes but you were crazy. We had been best friends since middle school, always doing weird shit together, then our lives changed when we went to high school. Our freshman year you had gotten a boyfriend, an asshole. He liked me first but I turned him down so he chose you, I didn't want him because once he got a boner around me. I tried making you see how much of a bad guy he was and you ignored me. Our sophomore year, him and I both stayed after school for different reasons, he lived close to me and had no ride, I offered I would take him. We sat down talking and then he pinned me down and said if he was with me he would have forced me by now, you were the first person I told, and you chose him. In our junior year he told people him and I did stuff behind your back, he did fuck other bitches behind your back, but I wasn't one of them, you knew of three of them, two were his friends one was one of your close friends who he asked for nudes, she chose not to tell you because in her head you were "couple goals", and still chose him. I remember you both inviting me to a threesome, I didn't agree. In our senior year I got a boyfriend and told him what your boyfriend did, he spoke to him and your boyfriend kept you away from me.

I remember when you first told me he raped you, how you screamed no and he continued. I remember when he forced you into doing anal and you were in pain for weeks after. I remember when he asked you if he could fuck your 12-year-old sister when he was 17 almost 18, and you stayed with him. I don't know if he hurt your sister and if you allowed because we no longer speak. I remember the pregnancy scare we had and when we told him and how he whispered to you that if you were to abort the baby because he couldn't afford to bring life. I remember the heartbreak on your face.

I do miss you, we had 7 years of friendship before you chose him for good. You were my rock in middle school and our early high school years, you were my best friend you were the one I ran to. When I lost you I felt like a part of me died, a part that was corrupted and I had to let go even if I didn't want to.

I miss our friendship but I won't take you back. After all the hurt he put you through, you forced yourself to believe you're happy so you don't leave him because he'll kill himself as he says.

Ex best friend you deserve better than him. I pray for you every day and wish you nothing but the best, take care.

Sincerely,

A forgotten memory