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I am a let's say 25 year old male that loves with his 40+ girlfriend in a 2 bedroom house with her teen son, she also has 2 daughters that dont live here but one isaround my age and one is in between my age and my girlfriends age.
Things are getting really awkward all the time as I know her daughters and son are embarrassed that their mum is going out with someone like me at my age and I feel tension all the time they are around me. I wish I could stand up to and speak to her son but I know the second I open my mouth he will cry to his dad(one of her many ex's) and will only end in him and his father getting very badly hurt as my family are ruthless smart bad people that have a life and fortune around crime and there just bad people to mess with. The daughters are fine with me but I really couldn't care if they wasnt. I just want to be able to relax without her son coming home and being like a 4year old child that plays mind games of a 60 year old. He knows if he throws a tantrum over the silliest thing(cant find his Jean's, that he probably hides under his bed) just so he doesn't have to go out and so he can shout and slam doors and break stuff. I have worked my ass off for months to pay for him and her but I feel like I'm going over the edge now. I love my girlfriend so much and she is everything any man could dream off. She cares for me more than anything and I constantly feel I'm punching above my weight. The truth is I feel suicidal and I've been thinking/testing different ways to end myself. This is my last chance to reach out and seek help or advice or even a friend. My life is empty and the only person in it that's worth staying for is someone who I think doesn't want to know or understand how I really feel. I do feel used and abused but I just want a friend. Some normality.
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why you say your life is empty..? your inlove with a girlfriend who's pretty much older than you.. nothing wrong bout that.... specially coz your girl loves you back as her man... you have kids.. who look like your buddys... common... you have a life... full of challenges.. try dealin with it first... you might fall with someone else sooner or later...
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