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Since I was little, I have always loved to perform. The feeling of being center-stage with everyone's eyes on me captivated me, and terrified me.
Hi, I go by Rae, and I have performance anxiety. I have the drive, passion, and yearn to perform, but it kills me. My head spins and I can barely breathe.
I haven't let my anxiety stop me and just this year I've been on the dance team, in the school play, a show choir, and I even sung the national anthem in front of my entire school. The thundering applause and the cheers echoing through our school gym almost completely distracted me from my hand that was shaking 80mph The day after I sung it though, I had a mental breakdown and couldn't even go to school.
It's like I hate it but I love it at the same time. It takes me literally 5 mins to convince myself to sharpen a pencil in class because I'm afraid of people looking at me.
My anxiety has taken a huge toll on my self esteem and I feel so helpless. It has caused me to be very introverted and I don't ever speak up in class because of it. I've been labeled as the "quiet nerd girl", because the only time I talk to anyone besides my friends, it's for a group project or when people ask me how to do tonight's homework.
My anxiety has completely ruined my social life and I don't have any clue how to be better.
Any advice?
Thanks for reading.
-that one random teen
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