I hate my mind, my kind, I am not fine

I hate my damn Autistic mind, I hate my own retar kind, obviously I am not fine. I was never fine when I was born. I felt like the part of those normal kids in elementary school until in middle school, I was told that I am autistic. I am ruined forever by that. My childhood is ruined literally. I forever think about my neurological disorder.

I wonder why these low-functioning kids exist and have to waste tax dollars and money on school and then given away to the government when their parents can't take care of them anymore. If we want overpopulation to slow down, we have to get rid of the useless. Think about useless animals in nature. Natural selection takes over for the animals but not for humans. They prevent natural selection from doing it's job.

Do you think the useless wanted to live? The brain-dead ones are suffering. The ones in mental hospital are suffering. The ones in group homes are suffering. All of those useless are suffering including me.

Screw my parents for giving birth to me. I didn't want to live. I wanted to die already but no damn scientists created 100% painless method of suicide already. Why do I have to deal with normal people's problems? Getting a job, career, house, family, baby, etc. This is torture. Why those low-functioning get all the luxury like being in special classes that has fun stuff, special field trips, special rewards, special sports, special therapy, etc. They all go to the government which wastes school's money. I could really use a better school lunch that doesn't taste like crap or something else better for school like redesigning the school.

I am sick of dealing with my toxic parents, toxic people, toxic friends, being bullied, being teased, being treated like sub-human, etc. I wish to vanish to stop wasting people's money, space, air, time, food, water, and resources. Stop making the useless suffer and exterminate them already.

Everyone would be better without me anyway.

Also shut up with the "No, you are a beautiful wonderful person, you shouldn't commit suicide blah crap". Admit that you truely are disgusted by the useless people. Those crossed eyes that glaze into nothing, those zombie arms that stick out in odd places, those hands that seals into the ears to reduce loud noises, those hair that is messy and messed up, those faces that makes weird strange looks, etc.

Unless those scientists can cure neurological disorders and magically make the useless become like normal people, just stop hoarding them in mental hospitals, group homes, etc.