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This is my way of trying to step back from everything that's happening in my life right now. I don't know what to do with my emotions. I'm trying to analyze why I feel so lonely right now. The people around me have something going on with their lives and they may not always be enthusiastic about it but they're doing something to move forward. Meanwhile, I'm here just waiting for something. I don't know what it is but I don't know how to do anything besides wait. I feel like I'm being left behind and it feels so lonely. No matter how much I meet up with my friends and how much I talk with other people, at the end of the day I still feel disconnected with them. This is the type of loneliness that makes me feel like my chest is hollow and my bones are cold. And I just want to cry but no tears will ever come out and that just makes me feel worse.
I haven't written a poem for a very long time. I used to have an inspiration every now and then but now, no matter how hard I try, I couldn't finish a single poem. I have a few lines and that's it. They don't make me 'feel' like they used to. I'm scared that I've lost what little creative sense I have. I mourn for it.
Right now I just feel like I'm going through every day in a trance. Nothing stands out for me anymore. Moments where I had felt joy, anger, surprise or sorrow were forgotten in a few days. I think I've lost a lot of precious memories by now. I don't know how to keep them anymore.
I'm writing letters to the people I love because it's the only thing that makes me feel something. Even if it's just temporary. At least I know that I'm still capable of expressing love.
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